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I'm not ready to graduate. I'm not ready for the real world. Don't get me wrong, I'm so sick of classes and pointless exams and endless homework. And I can totally survive in the real world. No doubt.

I just don't want to.

Mostly because I have no idea what I want to do or who I truly am. When people are like "oh, what are you doing after graduation" the people that can't find themselves say "Peace Corps. [insert bumblefuck country here] is gonna be so fun. The people really need help there." Everyone knows that they are just delaying things and trying to immerse themselves in a completely different culture and feel good about it at the same time, without paying a large sum of money. The Peace Corps are a great idea. My answer to the dreaded question however is "grad school."

What I'm actually going to do is sort out my morals, values, and beliefs and try to figure out a way to live in harmony with myself because this dissonance is getting super annoying. Like a Cascada song on repeat when you're trying to sleep.

First things first, I'm giving up a shift at work. While I plan on quitting the restaurant job that eats my soul away bite by bite in June, for now giving up one shift could drastically change my outlook on life. Who needs to work Sunday morning anyway. It's only like a $7-$100 day anyway. And usually I'm super hungover and stressed about all of the schoolwork I have to get done before midnight. It's not the solution I need to "finding myself" or whatever, but it will be a small start.

For now, I'll plan on being happy eventually. I also plan on owning my own island and laying in a hammock for at least 3 months out of the year, sipping sangria and listening to music mixed with the sound of the ocean hitting the beach.

In other news, I'd like to pose 3 questions.

1.) If a family friend sent you a $100 check as a random gift, would you feel guilty cashing it?

2.) I saw a professor's facebook page. His profile picture was a shirtless portrait. Interesting or weird? Also, fired or hired?

3.) Liz, did you finish your homework yet?

More posts later. After grad school orientation.