My Problem

I could surely make a list of my problems. A long one. But I prefer to stick to problems that I can fix. So, here is my current dilemma.

I HAVE THE ATTENTION SPAN OF A THREE YEAR OLD.

Literally. I've done tests. Four minutes. That's it. Unless I find something interesting. And even then, my attention span is four minutes. Whaaaaat???? How am I ever supposed to get this homework done if I can't pay attention to it for more than four minutes?!?!?! This is my current problem.

In fact, during the course of writing this blog I will have finished an assignment, started another one, switched my laundry, checked six other blogs, wished I could find enough time to wash my sheets, and a myriad of other things. And this is my blog. I should find it interesting enough to continue. But, every paragraph or so, I need a break. Which is my problem.

My roommate Liz posted a beautiful post about trying to worry less and be more zen in general. Lyla, promised me a zen book (of course it's hardcore and references monsters in the title) which will make me relax upon reading. How I can I read a book with a four minute attention span you ask?

There's the beauty in life. My four minute attention span doesn't apply to everything. I love books and can spend literally 5 hours JUST reading. Even if the TV's on. Even if music is on. Even if my phone is ringing off the hook. I can ignore EVERYTHING and JUST read. For HOURS.

How did I do well on the GMATs? True, it is a four hour test. That's about 236 minutes over my attention span. Let's just say I took measures to ensure my attention span would not wain. No, not drugs you fools. The questions change every minute or so, so the attention span was okay for that. But I did not take a break. Because I knew if I left that computer screen my focus would be shot. So I just sat there, stared, drooled, read, calculated, and prayed. Then I left. So much focusing has left me unable to function for the past few weeks.

But I digress, back to my original intent for this post. I miss the calm of the country. Liz posted some great pictures on her blog and I was reminded of the calm and content I felt amidst a great field of nothing with mountains in the background. I need that time to think. And I can't do that in the city. Maybe it is time to explore a little more for a zen spot. Not that I'll find it. But it should keep me occupied.